Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Holding yourself back is HARD

I took part in a really great coaching teleworkshop last night, with coach Suzy Greaves of the Big Leap Company. It was focused on what had gone on in 2005 and what we want to happen in 2006. Suzy asked some great, powerful questions which really got the juices flowing from myself and the other participants. One of the questions she asked about what we would like to achieve in 2006 was, in order to get that, what change in our viewpoint or decision about ourselves would we have to make. This really kicked something off with me and I found myself writing, 'I need to push myself forwards because holding myself back is harder' on the notepad in front of me. I don't know where that came from but seeing it in black and white it made perfect sense.

It is SUCH hard work NOT to be brilliant, to hold back, to not be pushy, to not get what we want. It wears me out, I don't know about you! I KNOW deep inside I am capable of brilliance and it comes through sometimes, but not as often as it should.

I took part in a three day coaching training course this weekend with CTI and it was just the sort of thing which unnerves me as I was in a room full of strangers and had to be willing to put myself out there, to coach on the spot, to answer questions, to reveal things about myself. But once I threw myself into it, it was so much easier than sitting on the side lines, wishing I had the balls to join in.

As Suzy said on the phone last night, sometimes what you fear about putting yourself in the spotlight is that people will throw tomatoes. But you can always make tomato soup!

So on that note, where might you be selling yourself short? And how can you be more brilliant than you already are?